Reflecting on John 20: 19-31
Why is Thomas still hanging around anyway? He’s heard all the reports. He knows that Mary of Magdala found the stone rolled away. He knows the tomb was empty. And he certainly knows the tale that Jesus appeared to the other disciples that very first evening, when he so unfortunately was not there.
He doesn’t believe it. He’s not going to be taken for a fool. Unless he touches the wounds himself―well, maybe he won’t have to go that far, but you know what he means―he will not be taken in by mass hysteria and a conspiracy to believe.
So why is he still here, associating with a community of faith?
Clearly he is more sophisticated than they are, more worldly wise, less susceptible to hope when there clearly is no hope, yet he is still heart-broken. His beloved friend has been tortured and killed, and when he died he took all of Thomas’ dreams with him to the grave.
And then there is the other thing. He’s been suppressing a soaring in his heart all week. Here is his secret: he so desperately wants it to be true. And it’s for this reason that he can’t pull himself away from those who already believe. Take your crazy stories away, he tells them. Please bring your crazy stories closer.
You might know someone like him. You might be him. So stay close to those who believe. Hold the crazy stories deep in your heart. And then watch for him to be standing very near you, inviting you to touch his wounds.
How has staying close to those who believe strengthened your belief?